I actually took action and signed up for my CFA level 1 haha! u have no idea how excited i am! =) i really miss studying! or rather...i miss the challenge it brings... and i am definitely not getting any now with my current job. not that i have not been using my brains for it... it's just so logical and common sense. honestly, a kid can do it with practice. i simply love the complexity of finance altho i admit i really suck at it. haha. i do! but finally looking at something familiar again just excites me! i am gonna study REAL hard for it. i cant fail! if i didnt see wrongly, the passing rate is 40%. and it costs 990USD. boohoohoo... if i fail... sobz... less shopping again!
Spent the whole night waiting for darling to call. but yet again he didnt. in fact, i ended work earlier (abt 7.20pm haha) so that i can make it back home to wait. ok fine i had a bad day at work too so i wanted to come back. haha. but still!! ok see, at times like these i tell myself it's ok or it doesn't matter even if i dont get to talk to him... but wat are the long term consequences? can we really live independently from each other? or is it healthy? as it is.. i am already feeling more distant.. talking to him like i would a friend more than a bf! it's not intimate anymore. i refrain from saying certain things readily like i miss u... i love u.... is it because i'm afraid it'lll arouse sad emotions or have we simply grown cold? am i just painting a great picture for myself, when in actual fact it's the complete opposite? i tend to ponder more nowadays. i just wish he called me.
so just like tat... i'm calling it a night... will there be a follow-up email? sigh. i doubt it. it's time to sort things out. but for now... nitez...
Spent the whole night waiting for darling to call. but yet again he didnt. in fact, i ended work earlier (abt 7.20pm haha) so that i can make it back home to wait. ok fine i had a bad day at work too so i wanted to come back. haha. but still!! ok see, at times like these i tell myself it's ok or it doesn't matter even if i dont get to talk to him... but wat are the long term consequences? can we really live independently from each other? or is it healthy? as it is.. i am already feeling more distant.. talking to him like i would a friend more than a bf! it's not intimate anymore. i refrain from saying certain things readily like i miss u... i love u.... is it because i'm afraid it'lll arouse sad emotions or have we simply grown cold? am i just painting a great picture for myself, when in actual fact it's the complete opposite? i tend to ponder more nowadays. i just wish he called me.
so just like tat... i'm calling it a night... will there be a follow-up email? sigh. i doubt it. it's time to sort things out. but for now... nitez...
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