Inspiration

finally thought of what i can give dan for his farewell!! haha... gladgladglad... i love how my days go by lately... it's so slow tat i actually have time to think freely. have been sitting in my room for an hr or so listening to class 95's Y2K wkend. it's surprisingly good! i have never appreciated radio that much except for when i'm driving.. until now when my tv died on me. but then again, too much of such tunes will usually lead me to tat fine line between nostalgia and depression. anyways, i'm lovin it now and tat's wat tat matters. =)

oh abt tat gift... i was thinking of a nice frame with a pic of us! what do u think? tat way i can always be with him on his table somewhere in his new room half across the world... haha! also, should i decorate it myself or buy a nice one off the shelf?? doing one on my own will be time consuming but it's not like i have no time after work... just need to get the damn plain frame from ikea which is totally totally inconvenient! mmmm... altho i have made millions of such sweet thingys for him in the past, i think this is still a better gift? yup. i think it is. tell me i'm wrong? haha i'm totally gay now! nono.. i'm ELATED! hehe... it's always hard to think of a gift for dan coz i've bought him enough stuff to cover him twice from head to toe! alrights.. off to my next mission... finding that one picture... mmm..... ;) work's tmr... excited once again... heez

Super Under the Weather

thought i was gonna die like seriously last night. my gastric pain was just killing me and once again i have to visit the doctor twice! wat's up with silver cross? it's just tat particular doc. he totally sucks. anyways glad to be employed. tat way docs are always free. hehe. puked again altho i didnt even eat anything for like close to 24 hrs now. grossest ever! sigh! i slept the whole day today literally coz i didnt manage to sleep last night. it feels horrid. no one shld ever go thru this!

i'm more worried abt work actually. i know this sounds stupid but wat if i dont pass my probation? sigh! it's training from london tmr and if i cant be there, i'm gonna lag behind real bad! stress! sighhhhhhh thanks to my greediness i'm in this state. it wont happen again. so WONT. no more binging for me at work.

finally, i really pray that my twin will cheer up more. it hurts everytime i read her blog coz she deserves much more than this. love u twin. take care!

Bad Day

shopped so desperately for work clothes. bought 4 tops. but dan's not pleased tat we're not spending quality time given tat our days tog are numbered. and when i came home, realised 1 of the top size doesnt fit! u know how when u try the display it's different from the new piece!? ugh! AND the other top looks weird from when i tried it on earlier!! arghhhhhhhhh they better allow me to change it! sobz. next, a bigger AND... tmr's MONDAY! =( k it's time to zZZzzz.... sigh.

Weekend Cheer

what a lazy weekend! finally able to sleep in later on sat but napped again in the afternoon. same goes for sunday. yawnz. but it definitely does feel fantastic!! i miss those days where sleeping till 10 is the norm.

found out something nice today. on sunday afternoons, 98.7 has this really nice programme called Strip. they play all acoustic versions of songs... i like! class 95 has nice hits too... but sitting in my room and listening to those songs just makes me feel emo again. firstly, i am gonna lose my room soon if my parents decide to downgrade. i love my room. the most cozy room i've ever had! secondly, darling is leaving soon. in abt 3 weeks. i promise to not make him angry from now till then so our time together will be more fruitful hehe. i'll miss him dearly! third and lastly, i feel old! i feel like my mind is aging. gosh i cant believe i am actually very much looking forward to saying "Yes, I do." just months ago i was all ready to make my mark in the corporate world, climbing the corporate ladder and wanting to achieve my career aspirations at all cost even if i have to slave. now i am just fine with where i am and wants more fulfillment in my personal life. help! i am sooooooooo getting old =| perhaps the maslow's hierarchy of needs is in action here. sigh!

Bon Jovi's playing now.... gosh one of my favourites... it's all about loving you... haiz k i better stop this now before i fall into one of my mini depressions. haha. alrights gonna do up my personal accounts spreadsheet like i promised myself. i must learn to save already. later... =)

TGIF!

still remember how silly i sounded this morning when i asked irza & sharon what TGIF was. ended up a bimbo once again! haha but now i can truly say TGIF!! a week of work totally tired me so bad. i could really do with some sleeping in!!

anyways, it's our 6th anniversary today! as long as it may sound, i'm glad it's here coz now i realise i really wanna be in his life forever. i always felt apprehensive abt us being together for so long... and how stagnant we have become... and have always thought that perhaps time apart will help us decide if we really want to stay together forever and that a positive outcome will only make us more certain of our decision. but NO. as the day of his departure approaches, i cant help but feel the loneliness creeping in. not being able to talk to him when i want, see him when i want. in fact buckets of tears flowed everytime i think abt it. i dont want to but i cant help it! i already miss him. when i started working.. it's like reality hits me. i'm finally an adult.. i have to think abt my future... and that includes my life happiness.. and somehow now there is no more doubt in my heart. i want him to be in my life till death do us part. i know it puts pressure on him but i cant help but tell him that. i need reassurance that he still does want us to work out and that he will put in effort in making it work too. i want to be assured that he isnt going there with the mentality of still being unsure of whether i'm the one. he says he isnt unsure abt me, juz unsure abt marriage. i can understand that. but YES, now i'm sure.

we celebrated at Lawry's! it's probably the best dinner we've had tog! the experience was juz wonderful... so cut off from the rest of the world. tat's pretty much it tho... just enjoying each other's company sipping wine and then tea. feeling fascinated tog when the manager cooked my steak right in front of us. the last part where heated brandy was poured over the steak, it's like a flaming fountain. beautiful! eh we watched it like 3-4 times actually... tat's how long we stayed... watching when other table's food was cooked too haha! it was awesome anyways. service was truly FANTASTIC. the best i've ever had in S'pore. and of coz the food is solid!! it's definitely worth the price =) but ultimately... it was our love that made it such a wonderful night. thank you dearie. i love you! always... ;)

tired.

gosh work is so draining. every evening all i can think of is sleep. sleep. zzZZzzz... i cant wait to be able to drive to work! i pray that God will grant me a parking lot soon... haha but first i must get my lazy butt to find one! goshh i feel so tired after work i dont think i have the energy. during lunch it's just lunch. mornings are too early. i'm always on the dot. 9am. haha! help!

anyways did more real work today and was pretty glad i feel challenged haha.. but i like it.. challenges are good =) still excited abt work... hope this stays for a long time hehe

nitez.......

First Day of Work

To a certain someone, this update is for u! haha... anyways, as promised, you can view my grad pics at the 2 following links:

http://nus.facebook.com/album.php?aid=13618&l=78145&id=521011280

http://nus.facebook.com/album.php?aid=13621&l=2547e&id=521011280

First day of work was ok i suppose. Induction was boring like mad. said hi to a couple of ppl.. this girl who'll be working in Finance and another in Investment Solutions. The latter is real stuff. She looks fighting tough and all ready to conquer the world. haha... i guess now i know why i didnt get called up for that position =)

Besides that, met my team. nice people as always. God is good, never fails to give me the best colleagues. this guy who is new as well is just like zu! not only does he looks like zu, his mannerisms are like his too! plus he's not as cranky and i'm really thankful for that. haha. anyways, really nothing much to update coz nothing much happened. am still looking forward to doing some real work soon and going for trainings =) till then...