This is really the worst pain I've felt in my life. EVER. I feel pain in every part of my being. Nights of crying have turned me into a zombie. Walking amongst the living, but yet, feel so dead. DEAD. I love him. I miss him. I still can't accept the fact that he doesn't love me anymore. How can one change so much after 6 3/4 years of love? It almost felt like these years didnt mean anything. I had him in every part of my future. I would think I lived for our future. Now, I have to erase this happy image in my mind. I have to force myself to realise that this guy doesn't want me anymore. Not anymore. He wants me as a friend. WTF? How can one be so cruel. I am totally crushed. I dont think I can love again. I wish I was never with him. It's just too painful. How can it be this painful? SIGH. I feel miserable =((((((((((((((((((((((((( No amount of words can describe what I'm going through. No amount of words can soothe my pain. Not even God. I can't seem to wanna rely on God. I dont know why. Perhaps I've blocked him out for too long? People say only God can heal my pain. As of now, I feel like nothing can heal my pain. Unless he comes back to me. I'm weak isn't it?
SIGH. I don't know what else to say... I need to do something. Just anything.
SIGH. I don't know what else to say... I need to do something. Just anything.
