Bored and Alone.

Feeling totally lazy to blog but still decided to do an update for whoever who still reads this. then again it's more of me needing some place to rant and bitch abt my seemingly perfect life. Anyways, have been feeling so in need of love recently, that it made me wonder if love relationships are really that important? i always say i can live without one... it's better... more care free blablabla... but now i'm not sure if that's the case. Either that or it's just some form of withdrawal symptoms since dan has been gone for almost 2 over months now. i just miss having someone to come back to after a long day at work... someone whom i know will never refuse to give me that much needed hug... someone who spurs me to strive for my dreams and aspirations everyday to keep my fighting spirit going strong... someone who i can love totally and not just superficially... someone who i can snuggle with and feel eternally happy and blissful. that person is just not here now. just for now. sigh!

I'm sure it's just me having withdrawal symptoms. if i didnt already have a bf, i wouldnt keep thinking that i am missing out on such things right? or would i?

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partying with some girls tonight. cheers to a guilt-free love life! =)

Busy Monday

removed part of my previous post... realise that it was really stupid and thrashy. hope no one read it yet haha...

anyways... had one hell of a monday! busy to the MAX. got off at 8pm for the first time doing real real work. not some stupid project tat's prob not gonna be appreciated. that said, i find myself wanting to turn everything at work into an opportunity for me to show that i'm better than the rest. i was just thinking to myself this morning on the bus... am i really tat competitive how rouen described me?? coz i dont think so... but nowadays it seems like i'm showing signs of competitiveness more obviously. but then again it cant be! i feel uncomfortable being obviously better. i always tend to give credit to others. yes... like just now... it was me who obviously did 90% of the powerpoint report... but yet i gave the guy the chance to email it out... obviously ppl will think he did it... why did i do such a thing? i have no idea... at that point, it just seems like i shouldnt have snatched his job (not that he really minds less work seriously). this was suppose to be his job but coz he didnt do his other job on time, this is being put on hold. and since i'm suppose to "help" him, i did everything. yes everything. but yet i gave him to chance to claim the credit. i regretted after... but wat's this?? am i mad? haha maybe i am... sigh! i hope this competitiveness in me wont overtake me. i wanna be liked. =)

alright really tired... till then... have a good week ahead!