Randomness

I actually had alot to blog about... but i kinda forgot what they are now that i have the time to... i will when i remember... =)

Anyways, had a tiring weekend! friday was fantastic tho. finally caught Ratatouille!! thanks mark for asking me out.. suppose to chill or bitch or watever with my twin but in the end she had training. but it's good coz she got her promotion!! at last! =) and my employment has been confirmed.. no more threats of lengthening my probation by evil joking bosses hahaa.. :) right, went for supper at newton hawker after that coz we didnt have dinner... too many ppl in town.. we actually caugh a fashion show by Etro in Paragon... quite cool altho not the best i guess.. oh pls it's spore! in fact i was trying to catch a glimpse of pierre png more than anyone else.. he just look soooooooooooo charming. goshh darling.. tat's the type of guy u shld get jealous abt. hahaa i was totally mesmerised... he looked SO good in his clean pressed shirt and cufflings holding a champagne glass. i wouldnt compare him with hollywood-celebrities-guy charming but he is for a sporean guy. it's not the fact tat he's a celebrity or he's handsome.. his look is unique.. but it's more of the kinda vibes he exudes... oh well... he's taken! haha but i dont wanna believe that there arent anymore good men out there. there are limited and few... but i think there are. it's whether we find them =)

Renewed Direction.

I actually took action and signed up for my CFA level 1 haha! u have no idea how excited i am! =) i really miss studying! or rather...i miss the challenge it brings... and i am definitely not getting any now with my current job. not that i have not been using my brains for it... it's just so logical and common sense. honestly, a kid can do it with practice. i simply love the complexity of finance altho i admit i really suck at it. haha. i do! but finally looking at something familiar again just excites me! i am gonna study REAL hard for it. i cant fail! if i didnt see wrongly, the passing rate is 40%. and it costs 990USD. boohoohoo... if i fail... sobz... less shopping again!

Spent the whole night waiting for darling to call. but yet again he didnt. in fact, i ended work earlier (abt 7.20pm haha) so that i can make it back home to wait. ok fine i had a bad day at work too so i wanted to come back. haha. but still!! ok see, at times like these i tell myself it's ok or it doesn't matter even if i dont get to talk to him... but wat are the long term consequences? can we really live independently from each other? or is it healthy? as it is.. i am already feeling more distant.. talking to him like i would a friend more than a bf! it's not intimate anymore. i refrain from saying certain things readily like i miss u... i love u.... is it because i'm afraid it'lll arouse sad emotions or have we simply grown cold? am i just painting a great picture for myself, when in actual fact it's the complete opposite? i tend to ponder more nowadays. i just wish he called me.

so just like tat... i'm calling it a night... will there be a follow-up email? sigh. i doubt it. it's time to sort things out. but for now... nitez...

I do miss u

I do miss dan alot after all. somehow i'll always shed a tear everytime he says goodbye. sometimes i wonder if i suppress my feelings too much. i mean, besides those couple of days after he left, i never thought much abt his disappearance anymore. i wake up each day with the independent-woman attitude. which i believe i am nevertheless. like i was explaining to a bunch of frens last night.. being able to live alone and being able to live life without him doesnt mean that i dont want him in my life. in fact, i think it's totally opposite. i want him so badly in my life but then i think it's good tat we are still able to live life away from each other. i think this is something not many couples can achieve. and much to my surprise, i'm surviving well.

this short time apart has actually helped me remember singlehood. and anusha's right. this time and space does help to sort out our individual lives better. i think it's also impt coz time apart does make me treasure what i have more and it becomes more apparent that it's him i want in my life more than anything else. darling i love u =) hugz

Mid-Autumn Festival

Helping out at the mid-autumn festival in church yesterday really exhausted me! stood for most of the afternoon and the weather was SO hot and humid. ekkkks.

Met this pretty nasty auntie in church. i dont mean to bitch but she was really irritating and bossy. i was the first to be given some task and later when she came along, K asked me to explain to her what we have to do. so i did. minutes later... i heard K saying... "Hey! u have done it wrongly... i said each person in the family gets one coupon..." and guess how Y replied... *finger POINTING at me* "Not my fault ah.. she tell me one!! she told me it's only yadayada..." RIGHT. that was just incident no. 1. & mind u, i didnt tell her just once but explained it like 2-3 times and SHE was obviously the BLUR one. humph.

As we were doing.. and more ppl came to help us... she started bossing ppl ard! or rather.. she kept yelling!! she treated those who were helping out like some thrash.. "eh! anymore or not ah? KW (oh this is an ADULT)! you got more there? pass it over la!!" then she just kept murmuring some grumbles to herself softly but loud enough for my sharp ears to hear. her husband is JUST THE SAME. ok fine, just slightly better. at least he doesnt rave and yell at others with no respect. and she did this a few times. after she blamed me i couldnt be bothered with her at all.

However... guess the night still ended off quite well. =) i think this young guy tried hitting on me... first time ever in THIS church. was actually talking to KY when he just stood beside... and i knew he was my friend's (this auntie i got to know who's a doctor) son so as a big sister i talked to him too. it all started out with "so are u in NUS too?".....

He started talking to me non-stop... and his gaze just made me all too suspicious... i started speaking to him like a sister and all of a sudden i realise it turned into some kinda casual flirting or sth. it wasn't obvious but i could see tat we had some kinda connection.. u know how sometimes when u meet a new person u can connect instantly and it seems like u've been friends for a long time. but i was disgusted to even think tat way coz he's SO young. 17. and he's some auntie's son. and she is so staring at us talking coz we were sitting far but directly across her! i felt like some kinda pedophile and so i did try walking away a few times... but didnt really work... he came back and spoke some more... he didnt know how old i was. when we were sitting down still waiting for sth to happen so we can help out, i felt awkward and did the "oh wat's the time?" thing. of coz i took out my hp and ahh! pic of dan and me on the wallpaper. haha didnt want him to see it but guess he did for tat spilt sec. it was only THEN did he suddenly pop tat question... "how old r u?" i was like... "give it a guess?"... "19?" GOSH he thought i was 19! flattered!!! hahaha i think after tat he kinda gave up! ;) altho he kept reassuring me tat i'm not tat old... i can still rem his face while he was saying tat and now tat i think abt it, it's pretty creepy. didnt know we have such pro-active guys in church. i thought guys in our church are all... eh... impossible. haha. well, i gotta say he's daring and pretty charming for his age. he's smart, like his mom... and will definitely get a great girl next time. someone his age. =) i was still happy nevertheless...to know tat i'm still young and eligible. haha!

Actually it wasnt only him. there was this other guy V from NTU... older..21... but still younger than me =| who sooooooooo obviously just wanted to know me. i think these guys gave it away too much from their facial expression. not trying to boast abt myself but tat's wat happened! out of the blue while we were busy packing stuff.. he intro himself to me and started asking me personal things like "are u still studying... where r u working at... which location..." and the ultimate was... "oh.. i think i know tat place... i'm actually going to a pub (some name..) near there later..." and there i was so afraid tat he'll pop the "care to join me" question. experienced me just "oh really? i think i might have heard of it but i dont know where tat is..." then smile and pretended to be busy. walked away. no way. i prefer the 17-yr old. hahaha..

so ya... my night was pretty happy, knowing tat i'm still marketable and havent grown so old tat i've blended to become one of the aunties. and i have also realised something abt myself. i deal better with old folks than kids. it's not a good sign....

Sleeping in. Sex. haha.

sleeping in felt SO good. it's certainly the best gift one could get after a tough week at work. oh and by late, i mean 930am. haha tat's a far cry from uni days where i would wake at 10 or even 11. ya by my standards tat's late. i'm a night person but yet also a morning person. maybe coz i never really get to enjoy my mornings tat much. i like to pack my lessons in the mornings so i can have freedom for the rest of the day. so i'm a bit of both. i sleep late and wake early. unhealthy i know =)

no activities this wkend except for to help out at a mooncake festival event in church. now tat i think abt it... why shld i be subjected to the "since ur bf isnt here you shld have time" statement!? i mean... he's not here... but i am.. and i have my own life right? i can plan or i may have plans for the day. but watever... i really had nothing on and i am such a bad liar sometimes. just sometimes =) anyways i'm doing this as a favour coz my usher team mate has been such a nice lady and she organized this event...

other than these... i'm addicted to Sex and the City! i am alr in season 4 albeit not watching every single episode of each season coz i couldnt find it online. honestly, it's a girl's show. some guy (u know who u are...) told me he liked it too... hmmm wat is it tat u like!? girl's perspective on sex? anyways... when i first started watching, i thought it was horrid. the sex and nudity is too explicit. after a while think i just get used to it. it's actually quite entertaining (not the sex of coz) and i realise i'm kind of a hybrid carrie and charlotte. definitely not samantha. hahaha... think i have the same perspective as charlotte when it comes to relationships and carrie reflects how i portray myself (of coz the more intangible stuff... i dont have a good body like hers). oh i love it! k actually i'm blogging coz i was waiting for it to load... gonna watch another episode now before i go for my swim - an-attempt-to-work-out swim. hahaha. have a great wkend! =)

Crushed.

I hate seeing you in so much pain. it hurts me more than you think. I just cant stand the way he's treating you, but yet i refrain from speaking in case it's you who ends up getting hurt again. You must be totally crushed inside but yet you always show us your strong side. You know what you should do, and I just pray that one day you will have the courage to put this to an end. I love you as a friend and hope you'll be happy again.

In love with my new Cereal

Brought my family for sunday brunch at crystal jade today. was great! parents were overjoyed tat finally they get to have their first meal on me hehe... had the usual dim sum with century egg porridge and the nice egg n prawn hor fun!! goshh yummmmmy! ;)

Walked cold storage after tat and yes, i bought a box of waitrose cereal with peanut and honey!! darling dont kill me yet.. coz it only costs 4 bucks! hahaa... was on quick sale coz it expires next mth... but i can definitely finish it coz it's superduperduper delicious!!

oh well tat's abt it for my sunday... came home after brunch and napped for 3+ hours! just decided to reward myself with more rest since this coming week is gonna be a pretty mad one... with big boss visiting from London... and i'm still thinking of how we shld account for the severe under achievement of our targets =| but something to look forward to will be No Signboard Seafood on thurs! and drinking sessions... haha cant wait to try new food and entertain like a business person! haha ;)

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Went rollerblading @ east coast on sat afternoon with ade and mark coz all of us were desperate for some form of exercise. tho i dont really think it's enough coz we had sushi tei before tat!! ate sooooooooooo much hahaa... Happy BELATED Birthday Adelyn! =)

Saturday night was great too. had dinner with kel and spence at a thai restaurant in the "new" sunset way hangout... tomyam + phadthai + kuaytiao + springrolls + calamari + 2 coconuts filled us to the max! we prob put on a couple of pounds there and then. haha after our fantastic dinner, kel, cor, jotham n me came to my place for a night of games haha.. it was awesome!! could at least save some money this wkend coz we played board games! UNO Rummy, bridge and later dai di. had to change the game coz kel was losing in everything hahahaa! oh n kel was quite high tat night on peanuts and hoegaarden. funny!! but everything was great. thanks guys for spending time with me hehe... love ya all!

overall it was a pretty slow weekend... constantly waiting for darling to call me altho i try not to think abt it... missing u lots... call me soon!

My "New" Room

When i say "i'm determined to do it..." i am! i spent the whole sunday afternoon packing my room! 1pm-7pm! no joke! i only sat for a couple of mins.. the rest of the time i was standing... that explains my totally aching tights/butt now hehe. what a dusty workout! i wore a mask so that i wont get a runny nose. my nose is super sensitive to dust! considering the no. of hours i was in that dusty room, i must say the quality of the mask is good! ya my dad took it back from the factory. hahah... ;) i look super unglam...

For those who have seen my room before... this is the AFTER! my bro was totally shocked at its utter emptiness...:

Yes it's totally empty and thus NEAT haha... Darling! must be surprised ya? too bad u can't enjoy my nice cozy room now.. wish i had u here with me tho =) my room definitely misses u hehe =)

Anyways.. start of a new work week! i am surprisingly not dreading it... guess i've grown so used to it eh? =) have good week everyone! and study hard for those who are still in sch =)

love lots... zan

Sunday Sermon

Today's sermon was one of the best i've heard since we started on the book of Joshua, considering it's such a weird passage (Jos 20:1-9, "Cities of Refuge"). It appeared strange to me and i thought it's gonna be one of those boring passages (just like those "xxxx is the son of xxxx... kinda passages) but Wei-En brought a whole new perspective to it when he preached today.

The essence of the passage was the process of convicting Israelites who committed murder or manslaughter back then, and that God needed his land to be "clean" as he dwells among them. what a passage ya? BUT... It is more than just tat. How wei-en turned it around for our application was "Do we give people a fair trial before we pass judgement on them?" God gave his people a fair trial (as can be seen from the passage), even if they were murderers. Do we, as people of God, give our fellow bros & sisters (and pre-believers) a fair trial before we pass our judgements on them? I am sure we are guilty of this all the time. I shall be the first to admit. I am critical about ppl and i do jump to conclusions all the time. people whom i have bitched to for the past 2 mths abt my work situation should know i am sooooo guilty of it. oh well, today's sermon really served as a timely reminder. What more, i really liked the way wei-en drew a parallel of the conviction system with what God has done in the new testiment. What happens in the conviction process is that if one is guilty of either murder or manslaughter, he would be sent to a "city of refuge" where he will wait for his trial. Cities of refuge are where these gulity people can seek protection and they are also accessible to EVERYONE - Jews and non-Jews (this can be seen from the close proximity of all the cities). If they are convicted as murderers, then the Avenger of Blood (actual term in the Bible) will kill them, as only blood can atone for another life taken. only then will God's vengence be satisfied. However, if they were convicted with manslaughter, they are to stay at the city of refuge till the high priest in that city dies. Only then can they return to their homes. The reason is the same, only blood can atone for the life taken... and in this case, the guilt of the man who is convicted is transferred to the high priest when he dies. What's the parallel then? Jesus. It's amazing how "Jesus" is found even in the old testiment and how God's ways are so consistent throughout the ages. Jesus is our High Priest and when he died on the cross, he bears all our guilt and that's why we can be released of our guilt and not be threatened by the evil one anymore. Moreover, Jesus is also made available to all! How amazing is that? We're just a prayer away from Him. In the past, they had to walk 1 day to get to any city of refuge. Think about it... I think the Bible is amazing... God is so awesome! =)

Weekend Updates

Have been wanting to blog for the longest time but either had no time or was too tired. So this is gonna be a really long one =)

***iPod Nano Red***

I was sooooooooooo delighted to receive it!! the red nano is the prettiest thing i own now haha...

package from my darling =) | my new RED gadget!

altho i got it about mid-week, havent used it yet coz i'm such a protection freak haha! i'll get so upset if my gadgets get scratched etc So... decided to go get all the protection i need on sat after doing my hair. walked from lido to cine and all the way back to wheelock again! stupid me didnt really wanna go to the Apple shop first coz i thought it might be ex... oh well iShop is as ex! and they didnt really have nice stuff or rather what i wanted... what i really wanted was the leather nano pouch!! i think it looks absolutely gorgeous in a black/white leather pouch but they didnt have nice ones there.. and they were all like 39 bucks! didnt really wanna pay so much... anyways bought the screen and wheel protector film and the ipod sock in the end! the purple one... exactly same as spence's haha.. no choice coz tat was the nicest! oh and guess wat? i spent abt 35 bucks in all... sigh!! i shld have just gotten the leather pouch from the Apple store!! haha... nmind... i love the sock still :)

lovelove!

***HairY Good Time @ Next***

Decided to do my hair on Sat morning coz i really needed a haircut and i am bored of having my black hair. It turns out that this is one of my beeeeeeeeeeeeest visits to Next! The only thing that was not so great was i didnt have that long massage hairwash coz they said i was gonna do colour and they'll be washing it again later... Anyways, i never knew they were so professional in their services!

As usual, yazid came over first then i went for a hairwash. Spoked a little to the guy who washed my hair coz he did it for me before. In fact, i remembered watever he told me and he was kinda impressed... or maybe shocked at my fantastic memory. but watever... haha not like i'm interested in remembering things abt him. After tat, yazid introduced me to this guy, Marvyn! he's the chief colour technician in Next... gosh i think the whole concept is cool!! coz he's such a pro guy... and just imagine, all 3 of us were discussing abt wat colour would suit me and what colour would bring out the texture of my haircut best! how cool is tat! if u know me, i love such things. i would always pay for great service. anyways, they were really nice abt it... told them abt my past disaster with red during ac prom! and they actually said i was "colour shy". haha n they even comforted me... and told me not to worry coz they are not commercial salons... and that they are professional.. they used the term "feeling highlight" or "creative highlight" or sth.. basically they dont just blindly highlight the whole head, but they select strands that they feel will bring out the texture of the haircut. cool ya? haha! and marvyn actually told me he will start me on safer colour first to help me get over my disaster... altho he had 2 colurs in mind alr tat would be best for me... oh well, i lovvvvvvvvvvvvvvve it!! for the 3 hrs 15 mins i was there, i really felt like a queen! having ppl fuss over me... i guess tat's wat i'm paying for eh? :) but it wasnt only that! coz colouring is so time-consuming, i actually spoke to marvyn quite a bit.. told him stories after stories of my younger days.. joke ard... and even to serious stuff like him telling me tat he wants to settle down with his gf but yet it's gonna be hard coz he's going to shanghai with willy to set up the new branch at Hyatt hotel! and they're gonna be there 2-5 yrs! sad ya? i could only wish him the best... goshh i felt like i've made a new friend! i cant explain how i totally enjoyed myself there... and he even gave me his new shanghai name card and email! told me i could find him to do my hair if i ever go to shanghai haha wat a nice fella. oh and he actually introduced me to willy!! for the first time i spoke to willy and he's pretty nice la. not as cute as i imagined him to be (kel was right...) he has style but he doesnt have tat handsome a face. anyways yup. finally, yazid blew my hair into curls like again, except that now the curls are biGGER and funkier!! u know wat i looked like?? one of those harajuku girls!! I AM SO SERIOUS! hahaa... it's SO BIG! and my hair is highlighted so i really looked like a jap for a while!! and he put so much hairspray i almost drowned in it. ok i suggested taking a pic but i guess he wasnt too keen on the idea. hahaa.. tat's it.. i left after saying goodbye to marvyn. my first and last colour experience. how sad!! yup tat's for my trip to Next.

my not-so-big hair... still slightly curly at the bottom altho cant be seen here =)

***New Item on my Wishlist***

As i was waiting for my colour to sink in.... i found a new item on my wishlist:

The Patek Philippe Ladies Twenty-4! Saw it in Female mag... and was totally attracted to it! isnt it lovely? it has 36 diamonds and it comes with a set of earrings and a ring (unfortunately cant show pics coz it's a flash website) Check it out @ http://www.patek.com/patek-philippe.html. The watch totally goes with the ring! the Ring is the most gorgeous thing i've seen. sigh! but it shall remain on my wishlist only... for the time being ;)

Alright... i guess that's it for now.. it's really getting too long... i could go on and on... later when i have time =) drop me a msg!

Short Weekend

time flies! it's alr sunday afternoon! sigh... oh and sorry if my previous post made me sound like some spoilt brat... i just needed to bitch so badly and i guess nowadays i can only turn to my blog =)

saturday started really early for me. body clock woke me up at 730am on a sat... decided to do something useful coz i ate dinner so late the night earlier i was extremely bloated... i actually dragged myself to the gym! yes at 8am in the morning.. haha.. wanted to do some cardio so bad to get rid of that sucky feeling. guess wat? some stupid guy in his army singlet actually ran so long! i waited for the treadmill like 40 mins! anyways tat's not all... when i could finally start running, the guy went to the weights section (literally charging towards the place) and started doing weights.. the worse thing is, everytime he lifts, he goes "woooooooosh!" so he went "wooosh, wooosh, wooosh..." and he does it in a show-off manner! how lame... hahaa.. guys...

anyways that afternoon, went to meet the team for some prawn fishing action at Sin Ming Ave. yes we caught 40+ prawns altogether and ate them ALL after that. yummy!! i was pretty skeptical about the nature of our activity at first but i must say it was a worthwhile experience! u will get hooked after catching one or two prawns hahaa.. oh but it's totally cruel how their pincers were removed alive and how we BBQed some of them ALIVE! can u imagine them struggling as u put them over the fire.. goshh didnt know i have that compassionate side... but ya.. i felt sad for them =)

rushed to junction 8 to wait for my dad after that in all that filth, to realise only then that my dad's gonna be late. so i thought, why not do some shopping! hahaa.. yes i can shop anytime, anywhere, in any state. so i bought a pair of cheap shoes (20 bucks!!) and a RED top!! finally adding some variety to my wardrobe. love love.

night was the bomb! went to intercontinental hotel for dinner again to celebrate my grandpa's bday. drank the most expensive soup ever and it was fantastically delicioussssssssssssssss! we spent like 190 bucks on soup alone. hahha! but it's full of collagen and nourishing for the skin!!
not only that, we earned oursevles privilege cards at the hotel!! so now i have 20% off food in intercon hotel restaurants!! guys! let's head there one day?? =)

alrights... i'm exhausted... gonna nap on a sunday afternoon... raining now... till then, ZzzZZzz...