I'm Alive...

oh well this blog has been quiet for quite a while... somehow i always end up wanting to blog after speaking to R!! anyways... decided to blog coz i'm feeling really grossed out and scared after watching Pleasure Factory. Yes it's dumb and silly of me... the image of the old man still haunts me! =( honestly, the show suck! and it doesnt deserve any mention at all at the cannes festival. sigh! there's just too much left to the audience's imagination and stuff tat the audience can actually realistically do some imagination the director has to show it so explicitly. there's just not enough development of characters and re-creation of the feel and atmosphere of geylang. it felt like the whole show was just abt a few ppl wanting to or contemplating if they shld do it and ends up doing it. minimal speech was used in the film which explains why we were left baffled more than half the time. sigh! but i feel affected nevertheless... scene of the girl giving the old cheekopek man a blowjob still haunts me!! =( i hate the show!

anyways... finally got to speak to darling for a while this afternoon. told him how upset i was that he didnt mention me at all in his post! he mentioned his friends and even his family but not me. call me sensitive or watever u want... but he's so far away.. the least he could do to make me feel remembered is to mention me somewhere.. how unfair! anyway demanding me told him i would have to see me in there somewhere in his next post.. hahaa i enjoy torturing him! ;) i miss him... so much... can't wait for dec!! alright i shld really sleep... church, winter clothes trying and Barclays open tmr... i would need the energy... later!