removed part of my previous post... realise that it was really stupid and thrashy. hope no one read it yet haha...
anyways... had one hell of a monday! busy to the MAX. got off at 8pm for the first time doing real real work. not some stupid project tat's prob not gonna be appreciated. that said, i find myself wanting to turn everything at work into an opportunity for me to show that i'm better than the rest. i was just thinking to myself this morning on the bus... am i really tat competitive how rouen described me?? coz i dont think so... but nowadays it seems like i'm showing signs of competitiveness more obviously. but then again it cant be! i feel uncomfortable being obviously better. i always tend to give credit to others. yes... like just now... it was me who obviously did 90% of the powerpoint report... but yet i gave the guy the chance to email it out... obviously ppl will think he did it... why did i do such a thing? i have no idea... at that point, it just seems like i shouldnt have snatched his job (not that he really minds less work seriously). this was suppose to be his job but coz he didnt do his other job on time, this is being put on hold. and since i'm suppose to "help" him, i did everything. yes everything. but yet i gave him to chance to claim the credit. i regretted after... but wat's this?? am i mad? haha maybe i am... sigh! i hope this competitiveness in me wont overtake me. i wanna be liked. =)
alright really tired... till then... have a good week ahead!
anyways... had one hell of a monday! busy to the MAX. got off at 8pm for the first time doing real real work. not some stupid project tat's prob not gonna be appreciated. that said, i find myself wanting to turn everything at work into an opportunity for me to show that i'm better than the rest. i was just thinking to myself this morning on the bus... am i really tat competitive how rouen described me?? coz i dont think so... but nowadays it seems like i'm showing signs of competitiveness more obviously. but then again it cant be! i feel uncomfortable being obviously better. i always tend to give credit to others. yes... like just now... it was me who obviously did 90% of the powerpoint report... but yet i gave the guy the chance to email it out... obviously ppl will think he did it... why did i do such a thing? i have no idea... at that point, it just seems like i shouldnt have snatched his job (not that he really minds less work seriously). this was suppose to be his job but coz he didnt do his other job on time, this is being put on hold. and since i'm suppose to "help" him, i did everything. yes everything. but yet i gave him to chance to claim the credit. i regretted after... but wat's this?? am i mad? haha maybe i am... sigh! i hope this competitiveness in me wont overtake me. i wanna be liked. =)
alright really tired... till then... have a good week ahead!
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